Selfish Revenge

Just another mistake, another bump in the road
One from which I can never recover
This one is it, the end of the road
Interesting enough that all the roads to here were empty

I never wanted it to turn out this way
Hoped for something better, something to bring happiness
The only thing I feel now is muted regret
How could I have missed the signs, they were screaming stop

How would it feel?
To have everything you’ve ever done turned back
Everything wrong re-lived out from the other perspective
How would it feel?

I’m sorry I left you alone
I didn’t know how to feel; how to act; how to love
It’s too late now, you’re too far away
I know how you felt

Dark. Lonely. Ashamed.
I wish I was more than I am now
I would plan my escape, get out right now
That can’t happen though, I’m in to deep

I’ll put on a happy face
Pass through day to day; blend in; fade away
It’s inevitable, but maybe I can make it happen sooner
Move on rather than regress

You made me say this wouldn’t happen, but my heart knew better
I tried as best I could, but the pressure was too great
I don’t know what else to do; I’m at my rope’s end
I guess this is how things will stay

You say things aren’t this way, but you act like they are
I must do what I need to do, maybe you will understand
Most likely not though, you haven’t before
I wish you the best, have fun with the rest

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